Today was bad; I kept screwing up my nursing duties. I was putting a sling on this kid's arm when i accidently jabbed him with the splint, his arm started to bleed pretty bad. Miss. Kinoshita didn't look very happy, but she knows why I've been kinda stressed lately.

... I'm scared and embarrassed about it, really - I don't know who to tell. I've only told Miss. Kinoshita about it because I feel I can trust her and she is a nurse...

Mayumi, can I talk to you on the trip? I think you're the only one I can tell.

~ Fumiyo. x

I'm still looking for the one who loves me,
I'm still looking for the one who wants me,
I'm still waiting,
I'm just fed up of waiting~~.

That was an attempt at my trying to get my feelings across without just writing them down. I don't think I did very well. Nevermind.

None of the boys in our class like me; do I detest them? I've never had a boyfriend in my life - I'd really like one. Not someone who just wants to have sex with them and then leave, I'm not some dirty prostitute. I want someone who will love me, even though it means not having sex. All the boys are even manwhores (Shinji, need a say more?), dangerous (Kazuo and co.) or just plain perverted just wanting sex (Kazushi)...

The only decent boy is Shuya and Sugimura. ... *sigh* They'd never like me.

... I suppose I'll just have to wait a bit longer to have a boyfriend. Maybe I'll get the courage to ask someone out on the trip. Not that they'll say yes.

So... it's the class trip soon. Fun, huh? It'll be a nice break - just to get away from everything.

I don't know what I'm taking yet, it's only a few days, I shouldn't need much.

Miss. Kinoshita gave me a first-aid pack. She said it was a present for being such a good nurse's aid. Maybe that means I'm on my way to becoming a real nurse - like her. I can only hope.

~ Fumiyo. x